Archive | December, 2012

Weird Dreams

23 Dec

About a week ago I had the weirdest dream. I dreamt that my family and I were shopping at the mall. I was alone in a store looking for stocking stuffers for the kids.  I found what I liked and stuffed them in my purse.  They were all about a buck a piece. I stole them. Really!? Why in the world would I steal and something only worth a dollar? Weird. After that, I leave the store looking for Jeremiah.  I saw him talking to a blonde girl. No big deal right?  Maybe he new her or something.  Well as I got closer,  I noticed something even more off…the girl looked EXACTLY like me but blonde!  I got so jealous and went up to them ready to fight. They didn’t even notice me. I was like,”Hellooo???? Remember me..your wife! ?!”  No response. No nothing. What in the world is happening!? I walked away realizing I needed to use the bathroom. As I’m looking around finding one, I see a toilet but it’s out in the open area where everyone is walking! At this point I’m so confused! I stole stocking stuffers, my husband is really enjoying a conversation w/a blonde me, and the toilet is not where it’s supposed to be. What is going on!? I really have to use it… so I do. People are looking at me like I’ve lost my mind. Mom’s are covering their children’s eyes as they quickly walk past me. Finally, I’m done handling my business when I notice that the toilet wasn’t one to use. Instead of having a restroom sign, they used an actual toilet!! How embarrassing right!? Well….I wasn’t! It didn’t bother me at all!
As I woke up from this bizarre dream, I’m laying in bed thinking, “okay ..now that was weird!” I hardly ever remember a dream in such detail but that whole day I kept replaying it in my head. And I am in no way someone who always wants to know the meaning of dreams…totally NOT me. But as I kept pondering it, it dawned on me! That dream is EXACTLY what God brought me out of! Before I got saved 14 1/2 years ago, I had a serious problem shoplifting.  I even spent a night in jail for it when I was 17. I was a very jealous and insecure girl. Although I’ve NEVER used the bathroom in the middle of the mall, I had no Shame. I was a wild child looking for love & acceptance. At the age of 18 yrs old, I gave my life to Jesus Christ and I’ve never been the same since! Jesus filled the void in my heart that nothing or no one else could fill. I realized that I didn’t need to shoplift to be accepted.  I didn’t need to go to guys for love. I didn’t even have to do shameless thing’s to feel love or acceptance. All I needed was God’s love & forgiveness. Everything I was searching for, I found in Jesus Christ!

I saw this toilet outside someone’s house and immediately new I Had to take a picture on it for this blog post! 🙂

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