Life

Hello Monday

I woke up to the sound of rain and distant thunder. I was bundled up comfortably under my blankets. My room was dark, telling me it was pretty early in the morning. There wasn’t a sound throughout the whole house.

It was still.

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I thought to myself, “15 more minutes, then I’ll get up.” I then reached over to grab my phone to double check on the time…. 9:15 am…Oh no!!! I jumped out of bed and ran upstairs to wake the kids up.

This is not how I wanted to start my week.

Coffee! Yes, that’s what I need.

Then this happens:

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Instead of adding the scoops of coffee where it belongs, I added it to the water! It wouldn’t have been that big of a deal if it were a regular coffee pot, because I would’ve just poured the water out, rinsed the pot, and started over.

Easy, right?

Wrong!

I have a double coffee pot that makes k-cups and a full pot of coffee. Cleaning it wasn’t difficult, just annoying because all I wanted was a cup of coffee!

Seriously, how difficult is it to make a pot of coffee!?!?!?

You’ll see….

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…yeah, I put the coffee filter in without realizing I never put the coffee filter holder back in!

At this point, all I could do was laugh at myself. (even though I wanted to crawl back in bed and start this day all over again!)

After a quick clean up, I tried for the third time to make my pot of coffee so I can Finally start my day!

You’re wondering how it went, right?

You’re wondering if I poured  creamer in the water section instead of water, right?

You’re wondering if I pushed start without putting the pot in its spot and coffee was splashing everywhere, right?

Well, do I have some good news for you….It was a success!

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My little coffee incident got me thinking….

We’ve all had crazy Monday morning experiences. Some worse than others. In my case, it was easy to laugh at. But maybe some of you woke up to something a little more serious. Maybe your Mother’s Day weekend didn’t go as well as you would’ve liked. Maybe you’re having marital issues. Maybe you have a sick loved one. Maybe there’s more money going out then coming in.

I can go on and on but…

Can I encourage you, dear friend?

Regardless of what your situation may be, big or small, we can’t lose sight that God is bigger than our circumstance.

He knows & see’s your struggle.

He see’s how hard you’re trying to keep it together.

He knows that everything in you wants to quit, but you’re holding onto faith.

He see’s every single tear that you have cried.

You might be thinking that I couldn’t possibly understand whatever it is that might be weighing heavy on your heart.

But I can.

I’m in the middle of a trial myself, so I’m most definitely talking to myself here, too.

My little coffee issue very well could’ve been the icing on the cake for me, considering what this last week was like.

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But I chose to laugh.

I chose to take a deep breath and try again..and again…. And again!

I chose NOT to look at it with a negative eye.

Friend, we choose how we handle the trials of life.

Don’t be hard on yourself if you didn’t respond correctly to something that went wrong today. Instead, take a deep breath, say a quick prayer, and try again.

It doesn’t matter how your Monday morning started. It matters how you finish.

I’m cheering you on, my friend. You can do it…Finish strong!

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Life

Handfuls on Purpose

It has been waaaay too long since I’ve written, but this mama has been extremely busy lately.  I even tried to start a series of Sunday Funnies to make up for my absence, and even that was short lived…Doh!

So here I am, on a cold rainy night, drinking coffee and eating pecan swirls, while sitting on my living room floor in comfy jammies, reflecting on all that God has done for me this year…

…. And I am so amazed… And so humbled… And so grateful… And so overwhelmed with emotion…

6 months ago, we did something we’ve never done before, much less ever considered… We took in 2 boys. What was supposed to be as temporary as 2 months, has now lasted 6 months. And what started off as having 2 extra boys, has now become 3. (They’re all brothers)

We now have 6 children. Can you believe that? 6!?!?! We went from 3 to 6 kids in a few short months.

And you know what?

God has ALWAYS met our needs. He has always been faithful. He has always answered specific prayers that we’ve prayed in detail. He has made the impossible, possible. He has opened doors for us since the moment we agreed to help with the boys, and it’s always been right on time. Whether it be monetary blessings or encouraging words, it has been given and it definitely has been received!

Has God ever blessed you with something and you totally don’t feel worthy to receive it? Like, “Who am I, God, that you would bless me with this?” Well, that’s how I’ve felt a time or two in this season of my life.

But I’ve had to learn to confidently go to God with my needs and pray in detail. And secondly, I’ve had to learn to accept when that need has been met.

Two of the most hardest things for me to do.

And He has proven himself to be real time and time again.

Just like he blessed Ruth and provided for her & Naomi while gleaning in the field, so he has done for us…. Dropping handfuls on purpose and making sure we are taken care of.

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We’ve all been doing well, actually. Everyone gets along great, for the most part. We have our occasional annoyances, but nothing out of the norm. I try to let the kids work out their own disagreements and it usually gets resolved in its early stages, which I am so thankful for.

But I have to admit, sometimes my days feel like this and today happens to be one of them:

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Me & Jordyn tend to stick together since we’re the only girls in the house. ‘Cause you know, us girls gotta have each other’s back in these parts! Lol

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She’s almost as tall as me! Can you please stop growing, child!?! Pretty please!?!?!? ūüėÄ

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This past Sunday we were finally able to take family pictures.

So. Much. Fun.

My friend, Angel, is starting up her photography business and she takes great pictures! Look her up on FB and IG under #stillmomentsbyangel, and book your appointment with her… You won’t regret it. Right now her price is $50 for 2 hours and you get the CD with all your pictures on it. Can’t beat that!

Here are a few pictures from our photo shoot:

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We got the CD with all of our pics on Tuesday and I’ve yet to upload them to my laptop…. And they came out Awesome!

Thanks for stopping by and just in case I don’t get back on here before the year is over…. Merry Christmas!

“Also let the grain from the bundles fall purposely for her; leave it that she may glean, and do not rebuke her.” Ruth 2:16

Life

A Beautiful Mess

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My life has been somewhat of a mess lately.

I’ve been on stress overload.
I’ve been overly emotional.
I’ve been a bit frazzled.

I’ve felt like quitting.
I’ve felt like a failure.
I’ve felt like someone out there can do a much better job at this mommy thing than I can.

I’m sure I’m not the only mom out there who’s felt this way a time or two, right?

Come on, let’s be real here.

Being a mom and fulfilling all the demanding duties that that requires, is alotta work! And please don’t make me list those duties… If you’re a mama, then you know exactly what those are!¬†

I watched, Mom’s Night Out, for the first time the other night, and it change my life! If you’re a mom, you MUST see this movie!!! It explains every single emotion, thought, struggle that we mom’s have faced.

One thing that the main character said to her husband was, “I am living my dream as a little girl. To marry an awesome man. To have beautiful kids. To have a family. But why am I not happy?”

In recent days, I’ve asked myself the exact same question.

Why am I not happy? What’s wrong with me? I have an amazing husband, who happens to be the best daddy in the world to our kids. I have a fairly decent home & vehicle. I have the privilege to be able to stay home and Homeschool my kids. I serve a God who has totally transformed my life. I have an amazing church family.

So what’s the problem?

The problem is me.

There, I said it…I’m the problem.

This movie has shown me to loosen up a bit. To not get frazzled and uptight about the little things that don’t go my way. To smile a little more. I’ve come to the understanding that there are just some things in life that aren’t worth getting all worked up over. And the big thing that was an eye opener for me was that I have to take care of me before I can take care of everyone else.
When you’re on an airplane, they tell you that in case of an emergency you have to put the face mask on yourself first THEN help the person next to you. 

Did you hear that mama!?!?

You have to take care of yourself FIRST in order to take care of those around you!

So right now, I’m wearing my face mask! My husband has been gone with our kids most of the afternoon/evening and I’m home alone.  I’ve been in bed mostly the whole time, and it’s OK! And quite honestly, I don’t feel bad one bit! I won’t belabor you with all the details of everything my week consisted of, but I will tell you this… It was A LOT & it was EXHAUSTING!

You might be wondering if there are some things I might could change in my life to make it less stressful? And the answer to that is,Yes. I’ve already reevaluated some things and am making some minor adjustments but that doesn’t change the fact that I need to change my perspective on my life as it is right now.

One thing we have to consider is that wherever we are in life right now is only a season.  Instead of asking God, why me? We should ask God, what are you trying to do in me? What are you trying to teach me?

I’m not even close to being the mom that I want to be… The mom that God had called me to be… But who is?

I’m a mess… I’m a beautiful mess… God’s masterpiece…

… And that’s enough for me.

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Your life is about to change

Last week our church had a revival with an Evangelist from our fellowship, and boy let me tell you…it was A.MAZ.ING! ¬†The title of his first sermon was, Your life is about to change, and for a lot of people it did….especially mine. ¬†I have a confession to make, I’ve always struggled with unbelief and with that comes doubt and fear. ¬†I can believe God for other people and encourage them that God would move in their situation, while believing it with my whole heart. ¬†But when it comes to MY needs and/or wants, well….now that was a completely different story. It’s not like God has never met any of my needs before, because he has, numerous times. ¬†This is just an area that I have ALWAYS struggled with.

I know it’s very common for someone to say, Man that sermon/revival was totally for me, well, I really believe that this revival was for me. ¬†God wanted my attention….and He got it! ¬†

His first sermon was on how distractions can lead to destruction and how we are easily distracted….with worry/unbelief! ¬†Our problems begin to dictate how we think. ¬†They get the best we have: our time, our years etc. ¬†God wants to distract us from our distractions!! ¬†He also said, “You can let go of the steering wheel now and let God drive.” I bet you can’t guess what song immediately popped in my head!? Yup, Jesus take the wheel, by Carrie Underwood.

He encouraged us to depend on God for our children, finances, and future, today NOT tomorrow. ¬†When you surrender yourself 100% to God, you’re at peace. ¬†During that altar call, I had some major business to take care of with God. ¬†I let go of all doubt, unbelief, fear etc, and when I got up, I knew something had changed. ¬†

That afternoon, I got a call from my brother, he was mad, crying, frustrated with life.  I encouraged him to come to church but he declined.  After we hung up, I prayed for him.  I actually was sincerely believing God to do a miracle in my brother without unbelief screaming at me!  And you will never believe who came to church with us on Monday night and got saved? MY BROTHER!!!

¬†The miracles don’t stop there!

¬†After the preaching, the evangelist asks a girl what her name is, and my daughter thought he was talking to her,and told him her name….I was sooooo embaressed!…but he wasn’t talking to her, he patted her on her head and went on talking to the other girl. ¬†But then he called Jordyn to the front and said God is gonna do a miracle on this young girl, she has scoliosis and her left foot is an inch and a half shorter than her right foot. ¬†I was like, “WHAT!?!?!?!?!?!” ¬†I thought, “Oh no, he called the wrong girl, my daughter doesn’t have scoliosis!” ¬†He was right. ¬†He foot was an inch and a half shorter, we had a ruler to measure. ¬†I was stunned. ¬†We prayed for her and she got miraculously healed!!! ¬†Proof that God knows our needs before we know them and He wants to meet them if only we believe and trust in Him!

Two miracles in one night…I think God was trying to tell me something!¬†

But I have a few more miracles I want to share! 

Before we started revival, we had our week planned and budgeted.  I had all my meals planned for the week.  We filled our gas tank and planned to make that last the whole week for revival b/c we live 30 minutes from our church.  That Sunday night of revival,  our pastor asked my hubby if he would be able to pick up the evangelist for prayer everyday that week!

¬†Uh Oh, that was NOT in our plans OR our budget! ¬†He said yes, of course, and we both laughed and decided we had to just trust God…without me freaking out with worry on how it was gonna work! ¬†Well, on Tuesday night, my hubby got a Holy Ghost handshake from a lady in the church for 100 buckaroos! ¬†God provided and we had more than enough gas for the rest of the week! ¬†That same night, my brother came back to church with his girlfriend and their 3 kiddos AND a neighbor of theirs! ¬†

I am so grateful that God loves me so much He refused to let worry/doubt/unbelief/fear rob me of what He has for me.  

“Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.” ¬†Matt 6:33

 

Life

Glory

For the past 8 months we’ ve had 1 vehicle….that I couldn’t drive bc it’s standard. I mean, I can drive it to the store across the street and back but that’s it. I had a really hard time getting the hang of it especially on the slightest little hill. I never realized how many stop lights and stop signs were on¬† hills until I was learning or should I say “attempting” to learn to drive standard. Those little hills turned into big humongous mountains to me! They were terrifying! Hubby tried to teach me but I got so frustrated with him telling me to become one with the clutch & accelerator!¬† REALLY!? Everytime I drove, which was not very often, I’d be so tense…it was not an enjoyable or pleasant drive for me at all.¬† It got to the point where my hubby would just drive me around wherever I needed to go which was nice at first, but after awhile it got to be frustrating for both of us…but we made it work. I would often pray for a 2nd vehicle, but not faithfully knowing it just wasn’t in the budget. Then one day out of nowhere the A/C went out right in the beginning of summer! No way this can be happening…NO WAY!¬† We all know that Texas heat is like a furnace…our summer’s are so hot it’s crazy! Once the A/C went out I began praying like crazy for another vehicle. I started to get discouraged when a month went by….then 2 and still no car. Thank God for¬† awesome friends who joined me in praying for a car. Everytime frustration would try to rise up, I’d tell myself, “at least we have a working car…God is gonna move….everything is gonna work out.”

We found out my hubby was gonna be in New York for 4 days and I about lost all control! There is no way I’m gonna be stuck at home for that long! Okay, hear me out, I wasn’t just throwing a fit, in those 4 days, my oldest would start his first day of school, which is about a 30 minute drive one way, he also has band practice. My youngest son had meet the teacher night plus his first day of school would be¬† while the hubs is away! Talk about me freaking out!

We got a small loan from our bank and began car hunting. We began to pray specifically for a van. It almost seemed impossible to find a van for the amount we got approved for…, we had to get it from a dealership and it had to have less than 70,000 miles or less. My husband believed we could find one, but me on the other hand had doubts. I would think to myself, It’s impossible then I would hear, “With Me, all things are possible.” One night, I was so overwhelmed b/c hubby would be leaving in less than a week and still nothing.¬† I remember wanting so badly to believe God would bless me but I was drowning in unbelief and doubt that I couldn’t even hear Him trying to speak to me. I began praying that He’d help me believe and out of nowhere I started having thoughts of every single time God met our needs in the past.¬† I began to speak positive and really truly believe that God was going to bless us before my hubby left.

It happened on a Tuesday, 2 days before my hubby flew out, that God blessed us with our 2nd vehicle! It was a glorious day indeed! We got a 2007 Chrysler Town & Country with only 52,000 miles with the payments we wanted and we talked the dealership down about $1,000 AND most importantly it has A/C! ! This is a VERY clean van inside & out! I believe we truly got blessed! I thank God that He is so gracious and patient with me…especially bc I’ve always struggled with believing God for meeting MY¬† needs. And once again He’s proven His faithfulness.

During this time of having only 1 car, I made a promise to my friend Samantha. We were both praying for a 2nd car, and we promised that if I got a car first, my first fellowship would be with her and if she got a car first, her first fellowship would be with me at my house. Well, I made good on my promise¬† and went to her house on Friday and hung out! She made pizza and we celebrated my freedom bc I told her I felt free!!! Lol¬† We’re still believing God to bless her! ūüôā

Okay, soooooo……I named my van!¬† I know, I know I’m goofy but that’s okay bc I’ve been known for being¬† a weirdo!

I guess you want to know her name, hu!? Okay but, don’t laugh….

Her name is: Glory Periwinkle! Isn’t that such an awesome name!?! Before you get all crazy on me let me give u the meaning of it!

Glory because I give God all the glory for blessing me despite my unbelief.

Periwinkle because she looks almost that color. I wanted it to be her first name but the hubs looked at me crazy when I told him…lol

Here’s a pic…isn’t she a beauty!

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So am I really a weirdo for naming my van? Do you name your cars? Tell me crazy car names that you’ve heard of or that you’ve named your car!
This should be interesting!! ūüôā